I speak to you man battling your demons, to you having spent so many years studying your theologies, believing in a particular god set up in accord with your conditioning. Can you not see how this reinforces your sense of division? Can you not see how your battle continues smashing into a world you project from your particular condition?
The questions arise: Is it possible to transcend all beliefs in mind-projected deities? Is it possible to simply be nothing? Is it possible to see through this mirage of self? Is it possible to simply be, without this striving to be someone or something in particular?
Doing your duty is being true to the immediate situation in your life. This is often misunderstood in the act of trying to be a nice person. In the greater intelligence of all things there are no such measurements. One has to see beyond the particular in order to transcend one's recurring condition. This is seeing it as it is, which is not as the person wants or expects it to be. Seeing it as it really is, is real intelligence, your true nature.